I did not start searching for another job until this Sunday. I just didn't want to. And whenever anyone would ask me about my job search I would get angry. Angry because it would remind me of the episode with the previous company. I still feel such angst inside me when I think of how I had to quit and how unprofessionally they behaved.
And it made me angry also because I used to wonder why is everyone asking me about me searching for a job? Can't I not work for sometime? Is it something unusual to not to work? But if I think calmly, I know they were just asking me generally and didn't mean anything else but still it irked me. I guess we all are allowed times when we needn't behave sensibly all the time. Right?
But when I was home, I didn't do anything constructive with respect to house cleaning or rather in general house keeping. I just wasn't interested. I've never been a great housekeeper because it never interested me much. When I was working I would attribute it to hectic office etc but now when I'm home I still don't do anything about it. I guess its high time I accept the fact that I am not a good housekeeper. And neither is there a will to be one. It somehow just doesn't interest me.
I was just bored sitting all the time at home with nothing to do. I used to sit in front of the TV but nothing good would be airing. In fact I never even once found a good soap to watch on. So all I got to watch was some stupid home-family-drama soaps which I couldn't survive for even 10 mins, "Superman Returns" dubbed in Hindi and I did try to watch "Gladiator" dubbed in Hindi but couldn't do it after 10 mins.
So over the weekend an urge to start my job search got me in updating my resume and posting it on the various job sites. An urge to get back to the grind. An urge to do something constructive instead of lazing around in the house. An urge initiated by the sheer boredom of being home.
I've never been a home person. I have always been an extrovert. Anyone who knows me since my childhood will vouch for that. Home is nice and good but the need to venture out is quite strong.
Now only time will tell when do I land upon a decent job - a job which matches my terms and conditions. Let's see when...