Whats the worst thing you have done in a fit of anger?

I'm so so mad..at no one but myself for acting so insanely...

I threw whatever came in my hands on the ground on Saturday morning during a MAJOR fight with hubby. I had reached my saturation point that day.

It was only much later I realised I had thrown my wallet, table mats and *sob* *sob* my phone too..its broken now...bwaaaaaaaahhhhhhh..I really want to whack myself. I've never done such things before and I have made a resolution "Never again"

So here I'm phoneless and more than that Blackberryless since Saturday :(

The impact

Yesterday while having a late lazy Sunday morning tea, I asked Betu to go and get the newspaper from the verandah. He went out side and as he was walking back in with the newspaper, he was peering intently in the newspaper. As he reached near me he said something which shook me completely and for a long time. He said "Mumma koi mar gaya hai" (someone has died) with a very concerned, upset and sad expression. I was too shocked at his statement to say anything and took the newspaper from him while hubby tried to distract him by taking him in the kitchen. He was totally out of words too on hearing this from Betu.

I looked at the newspaper to see a picture of 2 dead bodies, of a man and a woman, in front of some fruit shops with blood all around them. All the front pages of the newspapers since saturday have been filled with news items of the blasts that happened in Bangalore and Ahemdabad. It churned my stomach to see that the impact of such blasts has reached to the minds of such little kids as well. My son was a live example for me. There must be other children also who would have reacted the same way as Anirudh did.

I'm sure this is something which I and other parents would have been trying hard to protect our children from. From such cruel, gruesome world which inflicts so much pain into the lives of innocent people. It truly has been a battle for me to keep him away from all this but for the first time yesterday I felt I lost.

I don't have anything to add about the blasts per se. Coz I feel the same way everytime it happens. I hope the ants eat these people who plan and do such things bit by bit giving them a slow and painful death. They should die the most horrible death than they could have ever imagined. And I feel no remorse in saying these words and wishing ill towards them.

Horrifying story of polygamist sect!

This is the most horrifying story I have heard of in todays world. We keep hearing of harassment of women in India but this far exceeds any kind of harassment that I've ever come across. Its not just harassment...its pure cold blooded torture in my eyes!! And it still hasn't sunk in that this was for real! Read about it here.

I just cannot get myself to believe that such people still exist in todays world who are much worse than those cannibals. I am so filled with rage and shock. My head is spinning after reading the article and I just can't write anymore about it.

Why? Why? Why?

Quite recently I learned about a death of a newly married girl in our distant family. It was portrayed as an accident but it is obvious that it was a blatant murder.

She had been married for barely a week. Her family spent more than 15 lakhs on the wedding and gave a luxury car as dowry and still her husband did this to her. Why? He pushed her off the cliff on their honeymoon! Can you believe that? But he says she slipped.

Why would a guy take 2 men, portrayed as guards, on a honeymoon besides a driver? I just cannot think of a logical answer for this since he was not a renowned personality with goons after his life.

The girl would have had thought of so many sweet dreams when going for the honeymoon. Her life had just begun with her life partner and this is what it ended with. She was a well educated girl and had done great academically.

But I wonder why the guy did this to her? At first I again thought of this as a dowry death but when I came to know he had been given enough dowry, then that motive is also ruled out.Whatever be the motive, it cannot be justified. She definitely didn't deserve this.

And I wonder what her parents and family must be going through. I just hope he suffers in hell all his life and never gets peace.