I hate it!

He was getting so scared today looking at the kids shrieking and crying loudly that he started to cry too! He didn't want to be there. And I still left him there. He had tears running down his cheek and he kept saying "Mujhe darr lag raha hai" and I still left him there.

I can't tell you how awful I'm feeling right now. While I was driving back to work, at every junction I felt like turning back and picking him up from there.

I know I should probably be more stronger about this. And I know other kids will cry. I know that they will take few days or more to settle down. I know I will have to give more time to Anirudh too to adjust in a new environment. I know he can. I also know that I just don't like the look of being scared on his face. I just don't!!!

I just know everything and I still cannot get myself to accept it. I god damn HATE IT!!