Happy yet sad...

Today hubby, Betu and in-laws left for Bulandshaher to attend a function of a close relative. They will stay over there tonight and shall come back tomorrow morning. I had to stay back as I have to be at work by 8:30 AM tomorrow.

As I was getting Betu ready he suddenly burst into tears. For few minutes he just wouldn't say anything and kept crying. And then he told me. "Mujhe aapki yaad aayegi." and started to cry again. I hugged him tight and let him cry. I felt such a mix of emotions hearing those words. I felt happy at the realization and enforcement of our bond. At how he is sad to be going away from me for not even 24 hours. But I felt my heart wrench at seeing the pain in his eyes. The pain of not having his mumma around. I had tears welling up but I gathered myself and told him that papa shall be there and so will Dadu-Dadi. I also told him that whenever he feels he is missing me he can just cuddle up with them and he can also speak with me on the phone. And its then that I asked him to now think and tell me if he wants to go or if he wants to stay back with me.

He mulled for a while and then asked me "hum jaldi wapas aayenge?" and I nodded in affirmation. Its then that he agreed to go.

And now when they are gone and am thinking about him my eyes are welling up again. I am also not at all used to be away from Betu. Its probably the third time when he will not be with me at night. When we both won't be sleeping snuggled into each other, with his one leg over me and an arm on my chest and I won't be feeling his warm breath on my face. Sigh!


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